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I made level 56...

I can sleep...

Time to update. This weekend is boring. Rob's gone seeing relatives, Jenn won't be back till Tuesday, and there's nothing else to do but make some progress in EQ.

But, about yesterday. Yesterday me and Jenn actually went somewhere; out to eat, and then to see The Two Towers. Such a great movie! Continues the epic so well, and they even manage to make it funny by making fun of Gimli a lot. And of course, it was even more fun to watch with Jenn there. But we went to the smaller and cheaper Loew's theatre, and their seats really suck. The armrest in the middle doesn't go up like the Willowbrook theatre! Next time I'll bring a screwdriver... Anyway, I'm awaiting Jenn's return at my computer right now. I may go over to Sterling's later to beat SS2 with him for about the 11th time, and maybe Julia will come and hang out with us. It would certainly make things more interesting around here. You know, I don't think you ever feel the need for anything until you experience it.

Back from Jenn's... Seven hours is still not enough time to be with her in one day...

Merry Christmas. Do you know what I got for Christmas? An electric razor. That's right! Such a cool present. Got this little bottle of cologne from Jenn. It's all smelly and cool! Yep, best Christmas ever. And today marks me and Jenn's one month anniversary! We're still very happy.. She came over for dinner last night and we managed to escape from my dad and my neighbors to go "watch TV" as usual. I sort of fell asleep on her too. Meh!

Looks like I'm home. Home not only from my vacation in Fannin, but also home from Jenn's house! Amazingly enough, I cannot recall a day in my life where I've had so much fun. I met her relatives, of course, as the nature of anniversary dinners go. Very interesting people. Did you know that Jennifer's mom organizes the spices in her pantry alphabetically? Scary. Anyway, the most fun of the events came after the dinner, where, as usual, me and Jenn just sat around watching TV. I learned two things today: I can pick Jenn up in my arms, and also, I learned of her most ticklish spot, which I will not disclose here. No Julia, it is NOT dirty, you dirty dirty dirty girl! Anyway, yeah, she's great. One month on Christmas, actually.

In other news, my excursion at our deer lease was pretty worthwhile. I walked about ten miles through the woods until I got lost and went in a big circle back to the trailer. I saw turkeys. Lots of turkeys. And deer. This time around, I didn't shoot anything though, as much as Bret will be disappointed; not enough room for meat in our freezer. We've been giving out pounds and pounds of venisin to neighbors for the past week or so, but it's still pretty crowded. Anyway, there was this tree, and it had these two-inch long barbs on it, and one of them stabbed me, and I was like, crap. There ends the epic story of my vacation.

Armageddon will only come when UPS changes its color from brown to something else. "This man with a purple truck rang my doorbell and left a box next to the door. I called the police!" And think of the economic devastation! No packages would be delivered, because those damnable men would be too busy painting their trucks! Yes, UPS will, someday, bring the downfall of society.

It's time again to brush aside the spent Dr.Pepper cans and update. I spent another afternoon at Jenn's today, as she was able to sneak me over without her parents knowing. It's cool, since I think they like me, and it's not like my parents really care where I am. In any case, it was so nice to be able to be alone with her before I go on vacation this weekend. I'll be going up to our deer lease to shoot animals and drive ATVs. What a fun way to spend the weekend. I'll miss Jenn, since I'm so used to doing something with her on the weekends now, but it'll be a lot of fun anyway. Besides, I'm seeing her Monday at her house for her grandparents' anniversary (because I'm on such good terms with her parents)!

I've got to see The Two Towers. I hear it kicks all theoretical aspects of ass.

The MMORPG gamer plays to better his life. That which is virtual takes place of the gamer's crappy, socially-deprived way of living. Lost girlfriends can turn into fierce dragons! Broken hearts are merely insignificant points of damage! Stoic and secluded is the MMORPG addict at school, craving his next escape from reality. Crack is only a gateway drug to those whose lives suck more than a game! Besides, who needs social events when you can always be slaying gods with 40 other real people? Sure, you don't really know their gender, age, or sexual preference, but what's the difference when all you see is hundreds of wizard/elf/male? Loot over love is the gamer's philosophy!

Back from Jenn's house. We actually did get some work done on her French review. I didn't study at all, but once we finished that, we watched Wayne's World. Because Wayne's World is an awesome movie.

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Ahem. And now, a poem entitled:

Triscuit Rhapsody

Made of wheat,
And good to eat,
Triscuits are
My favorite treat!

Why wasn't today a partial day? Yet another five periods of sitting around trying to get some sleep, followed by an easy-as-hell geometry final. I finished in like 20 minutes. Tomorrow will be better though. I mean, electronics and programming? Is there an easier pair of classes in the world? Maybe electronics and floral design. *snicker*

Anyway, as I said, tomorrow will be better. Not only are there easy finals, but we get out early, and me and Jenn are going to go and study. No, seriously. I think we'll really get some work done this time. Doubtful that we'll go get to see The Two Towers, but that's allright. We've got the whole Christmas break to do stuff together.. I look forward to it. A lot.

Will I ever finish decorating my Christmas tree? It's just one of those questions that constantly plagues mankind. I swear.

It's Monday. The first day of finals week. I don't really think I'm ready, but what does it matter? I'd have to make lower than a 38.5 on my geometry final to actually fail the class. The highlights of this week will be Wednesday, as The Two Towers comes out and me and Jenn might be able to go see it, and Friday, when we'll be done with all this testing bullshit. I just want to get to Christmas vacation right now... And why did we even have to come to school today? We did absolutely nothing in every one of my classes. I'll just be glad that every period is shorter tomorrow. Geometry final will be so easy.

I love you Jenn! She just went home. It was so much fun today. Just sitting around on my bed making fun of MTV and some other TV shows. Anyway, she's the greatest. I just can't describe how good I feel right now, so I won't even try. Have a good weekend everyone!

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The choir's holiday concert is tonight. I am prepared to sing! Jenn will be coming, so better do a good job!

I am returned from choir rehearsal. I am tired. I am PASSING CHEMISTRY. Yes, it's a miracle. Mr.McCormick dropped our lowest daily grade today, and I have a 71. I may be worn out from the orchestra rehearsal today, and these two 7:00 AM rehearsals, but I'm really not feeling that bad right now. I'm talking to Jenn about what we're going to do on Friday, since she's not going to the Christmas party for band. I think we've decided on either going bowling with Rachel and Jeff, or her just hanging out at my house. I'm fine with either one.

I've been neglecting my updates again. So sorry! I just haven't had much time, or have been kinda tired recently. Let's just start with last night.

I went to go see Klein Drama's production of The Foreigner. Not quite as good as A Midsummer Night's Dream, but hilarious even still. Not only that, I (of course) went with Jenn, and we sat with her friends Rachel and Jeff. Rachel's really cool, and her and Jeff make a really cute couple. They've been going out for a year it seems, but Rachel's family is Mormon, and her parents absolutely hate him. I don't see why, besides the fact that their going out probably goes against a lot of their "wholesome values". Mormonism- no, religion confuses me. Anyway, the play was great, and added to that was the fact that I had Jenn to hold the whole time. *grin*

On to today. This morning, I got up too late to take a shower, which is actually something I always end up doing about once every week. I came to school early of course, for the 7:00 AM choir rehearsal. It really doesn't get much worse than that. What good is 20 minutes of rehearsal when first of all, you can't sing, and second, when only half the choir is even there? I suppose it was allright. Today was one of those better singing days for me, and I could tell, with so few people I could actually hear myself for once. It's probably because I woke up so late. Whenever I have a really bad morning, I've really got that sternum-rattling disgruntled bass voice, or at least until I get to lunch. In any case, rehearsal sucked, and we've got it again tomorrow. I think Jenn was depressed when I told her that... I don't get to hang out with her in the morning! Oh well. We must suffer only seeing each other about four times a day instead of five, I'm afraid.

I won't bother saying anything about today except this: I'm failing chemistry by 0.8 points, and I really hope it isn't a problem that I turned in my course selection sheet today. Very late, as typical of me. Anyway, I sort of missed the bus today on purpose, but that's okay. I got to "study" with Jenn, Rachel, Jeff, and Dori (pardon my grammar, I don't really know how to spell her name). It's funny because Jenn's car is nicer than Dori's! I'm waiting for Jenn to call me now, actually, since I'm going to her band concert tonight. Yay!

Julia said I probably wouldn't be able to resist the urge to write at least something about Jenn in my next update. I only have one thing to say to that.

Duh.

Today, as far as Sundays go, or any day for that matter, should be awesome. The reason? Yes, Julia, I'm going to see The Ring with Jenn. She's going to have dinner at my house, and then we'll drive to the theatre. I'll write about it more later when I have time.

It's cold outside. I just had to either move or cover up all my mom's plants, and I'm thinking I really need some mittens, or gloves, or something. I had to thaw my hands out in hot water... But oh well. Tomorrow is Friday, the day to end all bad days, especially those where my grade has suffered this week. Tomorrow there's a chemistry quiz. I will fail. It's inevitable. I have no idea whatsoever of what I'm doing in there. And there's a test Monday!

Home from the echocardiogram/treadmill test. I'm perfectly healthy. And actually, I am feeling better, like this breathing problem is lifting away or something. As soon as possible I'm going to start riding my bike several miles a day, and I'm thinking I'll ride on the streets now and use my mom's road bike. I need to get back in shape!

My grade in every class that matters is roughly a 74. I'm not doing too great. I really think I need to quit slacking, or something, but it's so hard! Especially when you're such a lazy guy like me... The chances of me doing any homework once I get home are pretty well below 1%. Maybe I can at least study for the semester exams. Ugh. Only two more days and this week is over, and then I can go out and see The Ring (yes, again) with Jenn.

Julia made fun of me in her blog! *sob*

I'm in programming. I've just got to sit through two more hours..

I'm home! Home, out of the school, out of the bus, out of the rain... Waiting for the orchestra choir rehearsal that is today at six. Yesterday I thought it was, and stayed after school only to find myself in the middle of a drama rehearsal in the choir building. How embarrassing. It was good that I stayed after, however, because me, Jenn, Kristen, and Rachael went driving around, hung out at this guy Jonathan's house, and dropped people off. Was fun. Much fun indeed.

Speaking of Jenn, I'm a little worried about her. She's kinda depressed because Kristen seems to have taken advantage of her generosity... I won't go into detail about it, but I hope I can make her feel better.

In English. It's boring as all unholy hell in here. In fact, I'm typing this on a crappy old 486 with 24 megabytes of RAM. It's like browsing the internet with a God damned TV. Just have to sit still for an hour, and then I can make it to lunch and regain my sanity. So far so good for a Tuesday, tired as I was to wake up at 5:40...

Ah, Sunday, Sunday! Show me a greater evil!

I believe Creon said that in that damnable Greek drama Antigone, but with regards to anarchy. In any case, Sundays suck. Supposed to be days of rest really, but it seems that I'm always doing work on Sundays. Have to do this research report, and then I've got to go rake the yard. Sucks. Not only that, I'm really wishing that today could just be yesterday again... I had so much fun yesterday. But, life must go on, and I'm looking forward to seeing Solaris, that new movie with George Clooney on Friday or Saturday with Jenn. And of course, now I hang out with her in the band hall in the mornings rather than with Rob and the crew of really strange people. It's nice to be away from those guys as nice as it is to be with Jenn.

Wow, I think I've just quit EverQuest.

Neocron's better anyhow.

Whoops, I've neglected my updates again. I'm home from Dallas- got back yesterday, in fact. I'm also home from Jenn's house. I'm also very hyperactive. Who would've thought such a thing is possible with me? Oh, the hell with the depressing side of my personality. I'm really happy to just be alive right now! It's been a long time since I've felt like this... I was with Jenn from noon till five today and didn't want to leave. We watched movies and I held her for so long, and then I had to call my mom to come get me. I almost felt like giving her bad directions, but I'm not that sinister. Not usually. I'm too hyperactive to write anymore, so goodnight!

Found Jenn's screenname. Very bored. Damnable boredom.

In Dallas. I forgot Jenn's screenname specifically, something like b2fly42 or 47... In any case, I think she'll IM me if she sees that I'm online. Seems that I've fixed this old computer. RAM problems, something hardware. Supposedly there should be 64 megs of memory in it, but only 56 are registering. Odd. In any case, it runs, and I'm done taking it apart. Those damn Compaq cases lacerate me every time.

Anyway, I'm here. Writing because there's nothing else to do, even though there's not much to write about. I'm sitting here at this computer listening to my relatives tell stories I've heard quite a few times. Shari, my cousin is here, and she's a sophomore now. As tall as me.. In fact, I almost couldn't tell who she was! This is the calm before the storm, I fear. The Creels, a big family related to me, are coming down. I'm not sure if it's just some of them or all, but it's going to be crowded in here tonight.

I'll update again tomorrow, I suppose. Going to call Jenn tomorrow too.

Tonight marks the beginning of the Thanksgiving holiday. Until next tuesday, I am free to do whatever I please. Scratch that. I have to go to Dallas to be with... yes, relatives. How dreadful.

Then again, it's not really the fact that I have to be with relatives I mind. I don't get to see Jenn until Saturday! But, I look forward to Saturday. We're going to hang out at her house all day and watch movies. Such a great idea, especially because my house is unclean beyond any level of human comprehension. I'm just going to miss her...

More later. I'll probably get a chance to update from my destination in De Soto, as half the reason I'm going is to fix my grandparents' computer.

Yay! Sitting with Jenn in the band hall tomorrow instead of with people who think I look like Hannibal Lector. Wtf? I don't. Do I? No. In any case, I'm looking forward to it, going to meet some of her friends and hang out. And her first class is in the pavilion, so I can walk with her! Too cool for words.

Tomorrow is like Friday. But it's not. So damn cool. I believe it's time to begin the overview of my day.

In electronics today, we finished watching Harry Potter, though a bit too late for me. I had seen it Friday with Halley and the Mormon crowd, so I knew about the whole thing with the basilisk, and the sword, and the stabbing... Yeah. Boring, as usual, we just discussed Mr.T's hunting trip and the new Bond movie.

In programming, we had a test. So very challenging.

English. Christ. Figuratively. I didn't do the first draft of my research paper, which we've been working on for quite some time. Hell, I don't even have my research on index cards. Of course, I wasn't alone. Hardly. Only five people actually did do their papers, so I didn't personally get chewed out. In any case, I think I can suffer the late grade. I've got what, a 96 in there? Besides, I wasn't paying any attention.. Just waiting to get to lunch and see Jennifer. =D

Amazing how I can get a 90 on a test in chemistry, when I really don't even know the material too well. I sort of multiplied random numbers around, and when I got up to Mr.McCormick's desk, he didn't insist on scribbling down enough red ink to drown a small tropical bird. Such luck!

Partly due to the fact that my day was going so well, and also because I saw Jennifer in between fourth and fifth periods, I sang really well in choir today. Singing is one of the best ways to express joy, especially when you can't contain it.

I fear Julia is in a state of severe depression. Look.

Well, I haven't updated this in awhile... My obsession with online quizzes prevailed again, so I must ask you to excuse that.

Let me bring you up to speed.

I am very happy. Like, happier than I've been since the end of last year. Seems that I'm going out with the friend of one of my Mormon LAN party buddies now. Her name is Jennifer Gilblom, and she's this really nice, cute junior. Aside from the fact that she drives this really cool car, I really like her. She's really subtle and cute when we talk, and we really do talk a lot. Not like past girlfriends I've had where there was sometimes an ominous silence during which neither of us could think of what to say. You all know what I'm talking about. Yesterday, both of us went to go see that new Bond movie. Once we actually found the right theater, we had fun. In fact, I really can't wait to do something with her again. When she dropped me off, we hugged in her car, and it felt so good... Put me in the best mood ever. Partially because no one's hugged me in quite awhile, and also because I really like her.

Aside from my mushy romantic life, I must say a few words about the Bond movie. It was pretty good, had that same violent, realistic, secretive feel too it. However, I must say that I don't think Halle Berry is much of a Bond girl. Enough said.

I must do my research paper for English now. Wish me luck...

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Jesus Christos, am I tired. With the exhaustion left over from region weekend, I started off today with a crippling, groggy start. The school day itself wasn't all that bad, however, directly afterwards I had to go have a catscan, and then came the essence of all choral evils: the annual men's choir concert. Stupid junior high-level music, stupid junior high kids, stupid English teacher waking me up before I went on stage, stupid everything. I'm fairly happy now though. Mocha frappachino cures all, even radioactive iodine isotopes injected into the bloodstream.

O.o

Region choir weekend was such an awesome thing, and yet horribly traumatic at the same time. No, no one died or anything, but I'm tired as hell. When we got to our hotel, we hung out in the room for awhile with Kathy and Claire, and then went off to the first half-day of rehearsal. It wasn't that bad, except for the fact that I was sick and really congested. Not good for singing. Long rehearsal, dinner, some more rehearsal, and then we went back to our hotel to watch this great Irish comedian on Comedy Central for awhile with a bunch of people. Of course, the next day must've been the longest of my life. The first rehearsal was three hours of just standing on risers and singing. That killed my legs, whereas the following shorter rehearsals killed my voice. It lasted just about long enough to sing at the concert, and then I was a hoarse maniac on the ride home. I'm so exhausted right now, and actually really sick, meaning that I'm done typing this.

Ever notice how friendships fade and break away when you leave middle school for high school? I used to have several different groups of friends, and they were all really different types of people. I always acted differently around each group, and actually thought I had a multiple personality disorder at one time because of it. Adam Pope and the guys who all played instruments in a band, that turned out to be potheads and punks in their sophomore year. David Muzal was one of them; oddly enough, we haven't said a single greeting to each other since seventh grade. Sara Longtin, Stephanie Begg and a lot of my female upper classmen buddies faded away as well. I never talk to Sara anymore, and only really talk to Stephanie when I'm with one of her friends. I can't even remember the last name of the Katie who went to a different high school. She was the girl that knew me through the little notes that the choir director in Doerre had us write to the singers one grade level above us. I actually remember still knowing her in eighth grade- she would hug me enthusiastically during the annual men's concert, and other functions where Klein Oak high school was involved. Kathryn Streeter was such a vibrant and happy person, we would always talk on AIM or MSN, but it was yet another friendship whose ties broke with the transition into high school. I see her in the career center often. I actually used to know Allison Scace a little better, I talked to her occasionally in my eighth grade health class, but after she got the impression I liked her, and actually asked me about it, we didn't talk too much anymore. I didn't like her for anything more than a friend. Even Katie Maier is fading from my long list of old friends- the most cheerful person in the world, I never saw her with a frown on her face. She still cheers me up every time I see her. I actually think I had a little crush on her at one time. Then there's Luan Nguyen, my Asian choir buddy who quit after freshman year and never went on to be one of the elite singers in chorale. Very mellow guy, for the most part. Even played EverQuest. Erica Moses is one that stands out. Probably one of the only girls I will ever know who told people she loved them in sixth grade, she was probably the first girl I ever seriously liked. She came from a divorced family, and has recently moved around a lot to different subdivisions. I actually was able to talk to her about how things were going this year. Despite her appearance and family history, she's still the sweet, stronghearted girl I knew from the community pool every other day during summer vacations. I would meet her there so often, and we became great friends. One might even say we were going out, but I think she was a little more serious about that than I was. Now, you can find her lying in the arms of her boyfriend in the mornings on one of those big plastic bins which hold the sandbags for flood prevention. They've been going out for a year or so now, I believe. The guy was in my geography class last year, all I remember from him was that he announced one day that his highest report card grade was a 47. Of course, he was quite proud of it. I wonder if Erica is concerned about his academic success? I should really talk to her more often. I think I can say now that Erica was my best friend during my late childhood, leading up to my teenage years. Mostly during the two summer vacations during which we spent the most time together. Not a friend that I want to completely lose.

Dare I go on? I can think of so many other friends that I've really just lost over the past few years. I've got a picture framed on my desk with a bunch of people at one of my birthday parties. Only about three of the people in the photograph are still my friends.

I feel kinda sick. Like my throat's really dry. Couldn't sing too well in choir today- could it be all these medications I'm taking? I dunno. Anyway, I'm not taking them anymore, since they're not helping me at all. Glee. I hate the taste you get when you inhale albuterol... *cringe*

Opera's tomorrow. It was fun last year, and should be interesting this year as well. I would mention the opera's name, but I forget the spelling, and never spell things wrong if I can help it. Never. Anyway, the only formal shirt I own seems to be too small on me this year, so my mom's going out tomorrow to buy something new. I hope she gets something decent.

Speaking of my mother, she got laid off today. Bastards. Optel seems like a pretty shitty cable company if they charge 72 dollars a month for 1 mb/sec internet while Time Warner charges 42 a month. Their TV deals are crap too. Perhaps she's better off without that job, but then again, what will she do now? I foresee credit problems...

Been walking to choir with Halley for the past month or two. She's a pretty cool friend. Of course, she's also one of the rare people I can make conversation with without long periods of silence in between sentences. I think maybe I ought to hang out with her more. Yes, even if she is a Mormon. Despite all stereotypes concerning the unfaithful, I've always said I prefer the word agnostic to atheist to describe my religion, or lack of it. Unlike most atheists, I don't 'fight' to destroy religion and its involvement in everyday life.

I know. I don't do movie reviews. However, I must make an exception.

Anti-Trust is a cool movie, in general. Basically, a huge, monopolistic company (Microsoft clone) has control over most of the world's computer industry, and uses evil tactics to steal a brilliant programmer's code and kill him. The main character, another brilliant software designer works to stop the company, and broadcasts the crimes across the world, in the end making all their programs open-source (hail, Linux!). It's got a great storyline and theme, but I must express my dislike of the last few turns of events. As much as this may spoil it, it's not like anyone reads this anyway. The blonde that the company is paying to date and spy on the main character ends up as the truly good, nice girl. This might seem all nice and romantic, however, the black-haired chick, who is intelligent, clever, and much cooler in every way than the aforementioned blonde, turns out to be an evil minion of the monopoly. Damnit. It didn't end the movie quite right! The main character and the black-haired chick had such a great love story developing between them, but nooo, evil Bill Gates clone has her under his control the whole time. Oh well. It's definitely one that I must download and watch again.

In geometry. The retards turned off the web filtering! If I had my home global IP address, I'd hack my computer and grab some music, or something, but oh well. 35 minutes until I'm out of here...

I know, I haven't actually made any real updates recently. Please pardon my obsession with online quizzes. Then again, why else come here except to learn about me? I don't write any webcomics or anything...

In any case, the Renaissance Festival yesterday was fun. Me, Julia, and Rob. Turns out Mary couldn't come; she was feeling sick. Again. However, it went well even with the loss of our potential leader. Neither of the three of us are very commanding leaders, and wished for Mary after wandering around for awhile. Rob thinks Mary should just take NyQuil.

On to today. In the first two periods, I had the pleasure of watching movies. While this isn't that educational, and I usually complain about watching junkyard wars in a class I took to learn about electronics, I didn't really care today. I suppose I would complain about the work if it existed. Teenagers thrive off complaining. Speaking of complaints, I wrote an email to the public information officer asking why the Klein ISD doesn't offer Japanese as a language course. True, it's a complicated language, but the country with the second best economy in the world doesn't speak Latin. I got an automatic scripted response. Perhaps the administration will take me seriously and actually answer my question? Who knows.

In chemistry we're measuring the thickness of aluminum foil. In atoms. Sigh.

Men's music in choir. Help me... anyone. There is no real bass part when you're forced to sing on stage with 150 junior high students, and I'm forced to sing like a tenor. It sucks, a lot.

New seats in geometry. Who would've thought I still sit across from Claire. Although, now Mark Cates is at my table as well, who suffered third-degree burns on his arms and legs in eighth grade, for something really stupid. What was it? Kicking flaming tennis balls filled with gasoling while wearing preppy pants made out of some synthetic fabric? I can't help laughing at him. Profusely.

On a last note, I've been listening to Avril Lavigne. I've never really understood myself and my personality, but I thought I understood my musical tastes. Generally, I like instrumental jazz, classical music, and all my Japanese stuff, as well as a few American bands. In fact, I think I've always resented pop culture. Screw it, my Avril Lavigne mp3s are cool, for some strange reason.

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Renaissance Festival tomorrow. Should be fun. Mary can't come though :(

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Yuck. It's still only Tuesday. But, after all, it can only get better from here.

Mr.T is actually pretty good at Quake. Not as good as me, of course; but still good. We use this weird mod that has a bunch of really hyped up overpowerful weapons in it, but considering the fact that most people can't aim, I don't mind. Good old rocket launcher.

Nothing interesting today, save perhaps the fact that Palisin wasn't here, and the basses now sit next to the sopranos again. So very peaceful. Mary seemed in a bad mood today. I guess she's sick. I hope she can still come to the Renaissance Festival with us.

I'm home. And soaked. It's been raining all day today. I'm pretty sure it hasn't stopped once yet. Holiday recordings were today, and my legs are still tired from the excessive amount of standing up that's required.

Played Quake in electronics today. When will those people learn how to use a mouse? The score: 17 to -1.

I can't stand English anymore. We're in the process of reading Antigone- Greek drama that I'm really not too fond of. It's not only the fact that I don't like the play, however; it's the people that have to read the lines. Of course, we pick people to play each character scene by scene, and it amazes me how poorly some high school sophomores can read. Not only do they sound completly monotone and uninterested, and can't read half the words without the teacher's help, it's like they've never heard of the damned period. He's your friend at the end, guys- he lets you know when it's okay to breathe! To add to the lack of confidence, most people finish their sentences with a sort of questioning tone, as if all the periods were question marks. "I think, um, Cre.. Creayon (teacher: Creon.) ohh, Creon! I think Creon is mad beyond any compre... hensible level?" At least the students in drama know what they're doing. Ugh.

Chemistry is getting on my nerves too. I forget to write up this lab, and Mr.McCormick is ready to stick red hot pokers in my eyes. I swear. There are the class favorites, and then there's me.

I think I can suffer through it.

I received a suggestion to create a list of all the little things that make life better, and publish it on this blog. Here goes:

-Ice cream. Any flavor.
-Green tea.
-Pie. Again, any flavor.
-When my pair of socks actually matches.
-Gaining a level in EverQuest. As pathetic as that sounds, it does improve my mood.
-Choir.
-New clothes.
-Good friends, which I have so few of.
-Relationships, which I also rarely experience.
-The snooze button on my alarm clock.
-Watching a new anime (when I finally finish downloading it).
-Actually receiving a phone call that's not a telemarketer offering me a credit card. I get less of these than relationships and good friends.
-Riding my bike.

I will think of more things. Trust me.

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The death of Rob's blog is in the past now. Oh well, we all know it sucked anyway.

Irene has some... Well, some strange friends. I won't say anything more than that.

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Julia and I talked it out. Turns out she liked Adam and me, and just likes Adam now. I'm so glad she was straightforward with me.

Goodnight!

So.. tired...

Must make tea.

Back from riding my bike three and a half miles around all these subdivisions. Damn my breathing problem. I can barely type. But, the writer must press on.

I'm a little depressed, actually, though riding my bike always help me think. Julia doesn't really like me, I'm sure of that now. She likes this guy in my choir named Adam. Oh well. I suppose I should give up and just be her friend.

Though, I still wish I had been at Irene's party.

Wow. Am I bored or what. Really bored. Like, bored squared. If only I was at that party! Oh, wait. I never knew the address!

how would you commit suicide?

Yep. If I ever need to end it all, looks like that's how it's done.

Speaking of wanting to end it all, what the hell is going on? Today, I get home, it's halloween, I'm going to that party with Julia, yay, everything is great. I call Stephanie Begg to try and bum a ride, but she can't give me one. Just to make sure, I ask her if it will be at Julia's house, and she says yes. My mom gets home in 20 minutes, and gives me a ride over there. I'm 15 minutes late, but it couldn't be that bad, could it? Apparently so. The party was somewhere else, damn it. I call back later, and Casey picks up the phone telling me Julia's at a party. Well no shit. I ask for an address, and no luck with him, so I'm sitting around on my ass, in this cool looking chef shirt. On my computer. Could it get much worse? I was actually looking forward to this. I like Julia, and I like hanging out with her too. It must be Stephanie's fault. Has to be.

By the way. Irene's blog does exist. Read it, for the sake of making fun of her later!

I'm home. And home alone, what's more; my mom's coming home late today, and my dad's off on another hunting trip. I enjoy the peace and quiet.

We finished watching Reign of Fire in electronics today. This big guy with a battle axe jumped at this dragon, and then the dragon glomped him, and it was funny. It was pretty educational, we learned that batteries use DC current. Crazy.

I got a 95 on my chemistry test. Not only is this unusual for me, being one who never studies, as in never, but Todd got a 15 on the test, Halley got a 30, and Nicole got a 65. They all hate me, and the hate flows through me and generates a new strength. Or something. Muahahaha!

There's really nothing else to talk about today. I'm still in a good mood from riding the bus, oddly enough. Katie Maier was riding today, and as always, she was all smiles and saying hi to everyone. There's this joyful light about her personality that can cheer anyone up, even the most bored, exhausted, pessimistic person like me. It's almost scary, but she's been like that since first grade.

Halloween party tomorrow night. Fear my chef costume and wooden spoon- fear it with great fear.

And now, a haiku, composed by me as I had a revelation on the way home.

Fire truck stops in traffic

Now someone who is in need

Will burn quite a lot

I saw this fire truck, with sirens blaring and all get stopped in front of someone who was pulling out of an exxon today. I thought to myself, wow, someone must be burning because of Mr.Incompetent Driver. Who wouldn't notice it?

You know what I really want to do right now? Go outside and stand in the rain.

I think I'll copy that essay onto my blog to wind down for tonight. Just because I'm bored, and tired. Here begins my essay entitled:

The Five Points of Klein Character Development! (This is me writing to a journal prompt in English. I'm supposed to be discussing respect, committment, integrity, initiative, and responsibility)
If I'm going to write about character development, I might as well take a stand against Klein's attempt at 'turning us into better people'. First of all, it probably won't work. Putting up posters around the school with these five points of a good personality listed on them isn't going to help anyone. Half the school probably hasn't even given a thought as to what initiative really even means. Second, the approach they're taking is wrong. If they just toughen the punishment for wrongdoing, it's not going to make people avoid tardies, absences, or anything else that breaks a rule, or a law, for that matter. Take my electronics class for example. One guy is on probation until next summer, yet he still has a problem with alcohol. Another is rarely in class; truencies and tardies land him in ISS most of the time. I hate to be blunt, but the posters are not helping them.

But since I'm supposed to be writing to the prompt, I'll set aside my teenage urge to 'fight the system'. I do value these five qualities in people, my friends, family, and the traces of them that are in myself. Respect is my favorite. I never have appreciated anyone who slings crude insults at you for being with a certain group of people, having a 'different' style or 'different' beliefs. Respect is something that the world needs a lot more of. I can't stand it when some student will act rudely with a teacher, and afterwards feeling a sort of selfish pride about it. It gives teenagers a bad name.

Moving on to committment, this is something of a less important aspect of my personality. It's good to be committed to school, getting good grades and the sort, but the last time I have done any schoolwork at home was probably in the middle of the first six weeks. I don't study for any of my classes, and I get my homework done in my lunch period so it doesn't plague me at home. I prefer to go home, relax, and have nothing the worry about or dwell on, save my personal life.

Integrity is another quality that I find important, but not wholly. Honesty is a virtue when it comes to school or work, though when it comes to friends or relationships, a certain level of 'tactile honesty' is important. If an overweight friend was planning to commit suicide, "End it all, you fat (edit)bastard" is definitely not the ideal thing to say. A little white lie can sometimes be a valuable asset when keeping friends.

Initiative and responsibility go hand in hand. I'm not good at either one of them, being the aforementioned lazy person I am. I'll occasionally forget a geometry assignment or two, but I try to keep within the limits of what will and will not hurt my grade, or reputation.

I'm done writing. Perhaps I should look into yoga, as I mentioned...

I just realized something. I noticed something, a little glitch in my personality and my being when I was sitting around playing EQ. I'm listening to Yaida Hitomi, a damn female Japanese singer, and all of a sudden, I hear my dad's voice call me downstairs. He sounds really angry and such, so I jump out of my chair, knock over some books and things, and lean over the rail. "Yes? Did.. did you call me?" "No, was talking to the dog." This happens a lot. Therefore, I have come to the conclusion that:

I am very high-strung and tense. I just can't seem to relax. People have told me this before, I suppose I've just never taken it into consideration. Must be why my muscles are always so tense. Aghh, and I'm noticing it especially today, I feel really tired for some reason. Maybe yoga? Or meditation? Or something. gAGOD the phone just rang...

Hey, I'm home. And I'm in region choir. Seriously! Mr.Raddin came by my geometry class at the end of today and told me that a few bases failed, and that I'd been called to be in region choir. Wasn't expecting that.

Reign of Fire is an interesting movie. I can't quite decide if it's any good yet, but I say that because we're watching it in electronics. Dragons and British people with guns. It's interesting.

In English today, I had to write about the 'five points of Klein Character Development' in my journal. I wrote this big elaborate thing about why I think the concept that Klein is trying to make us into better people is really pretty retarded. I may copy it into this blog later on.

Betcha I failed the chemistry quiz. I just know it.

In choir, we're learning this new Hanukkah song, most likely for the holiday concert. I don't like it too much, but that's probably just because we're learning it in sophage. Meh.

Like I said, I'll probably write my little essay on character development in here later, when I've got some more time. Work to do right now, such as cleaning this embarrassingly messy upper floor of my house.

Ugh. I don't really give a damn if anyone reads this, I've just got to have this website to dump my thoughts into, or I end up containing them for all eternity.

I feel kinda bad about seeing the movie with Julia. I'm so embarrassed. Not about going with her, but about what I did.. In the middle of the movie, I kinda put my arm around her. I don't know if it's because I really like her, or because I think she might still like me. She did send me that email after all, but still, I feel like a real idiot. Even if she does still like me, maybe it was too early to do something like that? I don't know. It seemed to make her really uncomfortable, and I stopped, but I felt like apologizing for my stupidity the entire time afterwards. And I did, and I still feel like doing it, but I really don't want to bring up the subject again. Whyyyy am I so stupid?

It's not like she's holding it against me or anything, she's not really the type of person to be quick to anger, or anything like that. I just still feel really dumb for doing it.

Irene, if you ever mention this, to anyone, to me, I'm going to kill you. I just had to write about it.

The Ring was freaky as hell. Although, it wasn't quite as scary as Signs, in my opinion; I think that's because I'm a bit more desensitized to violence and mangled dead people than Julia is. In any case, today was fun.

I'd write about it more, but this place is now a well of topics for Irene's blackmail. Maybe later.

Sigh. From what Irene says, Julia likes this Adam guy in choir, and has for a long time. I guess it's good to know, but even still, I wish she just wouldn't tell me stuff like this. Now I have to have that in the back of my mind tomorrow.

Just so I don't seem like I'm obsessing over her (which I'm not, by all means), I think I'll try and get my mind off that subject, and write about something else.

Friday, we continued watching junkyard wars in electronics, and I continued to sleep in programming. It's becoming so routine, I can't stand it, but at least electronics is only one semester long. English I can live with, since occasionally we get to write according to a halfway interesting prompt in there, and the tests are easy. I can't believe 'palatable' is a vocabulary word. Didn't these people ever read Calvin & Hobbes? That's where you get vocabulary from. I swear!

Chemistry is getting difficult. I really need to learn my polyatomic ions, or I'm going to hell.

Geometry is easy, as always, and there's this interesting guy I've made friends with who sits across from me. He's from the Philippines, he drives, and smokes. I suppose that's all okay, since he's 18. He invited me to go over to his house on Saturday; not like I have anything better to do. Amazing.. I'm getting out of my house twice this weekend.

Julia knows about this blog now. I suppose it's only fair, since I've known about hers since its creation.. But still! So embarrasing!

Back from the sign language club with Julia. Sure was interesting, but it was fun. Her sister is a psychopath. Amazingly, Julia said that she herself is more ditzy than Irene. I don't believe her.

I'm going to see a movie with Julia on Sunday! Probably The Ring, or maybe Road to Perdition, since Tom Hanks is cool. Yay!

I'm home!

All I really feel like talking about today is choir. None of my other periods are really that interesting anymore, and not all that fun. I have the Hallelujah Chorus stuck in my head, and it still won't come out. It's so energetic and moving, almost like our voices are instruments, which is what Mr.Raddin said is typical of the Baroque style of music.

Julia's so funny. She kept avoiding eye contact with the bass section today so she wouldn't meet eyes with me. She did mention it in her blog, though I noticed it anyway. She also mentioned that she really does like me, and emailed me last night telling me she worded her IM wrong. Now, she admits she's attracted to me. I'm so happy! Tomorrow is the sign language club meeting, which I'm going to with Julia. I still can't decide if I want to ask her out tomorrow, or wait awhile longer; either way, I haven't been this ecstatic in quite awhile.

Did I mention I got 29th rank in region auditions? Same as district. And they took 26 bass II's. So I only need to arrange the tragic death of three of them...

Hmm. Well, I just asked Julia if she liked me (yes, on AIM, I will always be that lame) and she said it had crossed her mind once or twice, but she'd never seriously had a crush on me. It's not really like that means nothing else can happen, and I really do wish I had waited until later to ask her. Though, I suppose Irene told me that Julia likes me just to get me to ask her out, or somesuch. Come to think of it, Mary told me the same thing. Nosy, aren't we?

I don't mind. Julia's still a great friend.

Agh. My back hurts. Damnable hospital tests; they have you breathe into a tube as hard as humanly possible for as long as you can, and then they have you do it again all drugged up. In any case, none of it really helped. I obviously don't have asthma, as the inhaler they gave me didn't help at all. I thought medicine was a little more advanced than that these days?

In other news, Irene is bugging me to ask Julia out. I told her I probably will eventually do it, I'd just rather have her as a good friend for now. The interesting thing is, she said Julia likes me. I might as well believe it, Irene is Julia's sister, even as sneaky and backhanded as she is. How complicated my life is.

Been talking to Julia about my whole atheist explanations for the purpose of religion. Heh, I must think I'm a real philosopher. But, get this. She agrees with me.

Enough said. She is so damn cool.

"I'm like, what? Ok, mystical man in the sky. Controls my destiny. He's got a son? That saves us from being tossed into an unholy campfire? Mkaaay"

Oh man. This comic is a work of pure genius. This is for all your bastards out there who use 'u' and 'r' in the place of 'you' and 'are'. I don't know if your English is that bad, or if you're just really dumb. But please, spare us the ineptitude.

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If I ever write on this website again like that, for any purpose other than making fun of people, just remember; my address is on one of these posts. Send me some fucking anthrax.

My cat is scaring me. She's been sitting below my chair for hours. I can't even make her go away.

Aside from that, let's move into today. Mondays really don't have to be bad, it's just that everyone makes them that way. The earth: 51% pessimistic? Evidently.

Nothing to talk about in electronics, save the newest episode of junkyard wars, though programming became a lot more challenging today. We're finally learning how to create our own variables and constants in a program, which is what I've been waiting for. This means you can specify something like"strCynicism = '100'", and the computer will recognize "cynicism" as a value from then on, as a string of text, which is represented by the "str" prefix. Very useful.

My English teacher is making fun of me. She knows that I'm an atheist due to that paper I had to write, and on my test, she wrote a note to 'taunt my agnostics', as she put it. She wants me to humor the possibility that an afterlife exists in my writings. I have no problem with that, I suppose, it's not like I'm a really active neo-atheist who would burn a church down at will. I'm just also not completely passive.

Why won't Mr.McCormick stop the quizzes in chemistry? Why?

Choir. Nothing to say other than I love the Hallelujah Chorus, and I've got Julia's picture to add to my crappy HBO wallet now. Maybe I should buy a decent one? With what money?

Alas, I didn't make region. Neither did Julia. Or Mary. Evidently, it was much harder than I had anticipated. I really thought I did quite well on my audition too, but that's generally what I always think; I'll screw up terribly, and not realize it, walking out of the audition room feeling great about my performance. Shit happens. At least I don't have to attend rehearsal four days a week anymore, and no more day-long auditions. Then again, that's looking at the bright side. I would've much rather gone onto pre-area auditions. Sigh.

I'll find out my rank tomorrow in choir, not that it'll really be worth knowing.

I'm home. No region rehearsal today. I suppose they want to give us a break, as the auditions are tomorrow, but I would've much rather gone over the music again in a rehearsal. At least I'm home early, and I've got the house to myself.

I got a lot of sleep in electronics, programming, and English today. Big surprise. In chemistry, now we have to memorize the naming system for acids as well as every other compound, if it weren't already complicated enough. I'll get the hang of it.

Oh, I'm overjoyed about choir. We're singing the Hallelujah Chorus from The Messiah for the holiday concert. Not only do I have an mp3 of it anyway, it's from Evangelion, and I already know half the bass part. It's going to sound wonderful when chorale has perfected it. I'm just becoming very nervous over the thought of region auditions. Not only the fact that I may not make it, but the good chance that I'll have to sing at five or six o'clock. Oh well. Maybe I'll sit with Sterling on the bus, to avoid sitting with Alex. Because Alex isn't too bad, but he never knows when to stop talking.

Wish me luck. I'll need it.

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I'm not cold anymore, at least now that it's the afternoon and I'm home. Perhaps I should find a jacket? Perhaps. In any case, getting to today.

I suppose it's back to watching movies in electronics; it took everyone only two days to finish the projects we were finally assigned. Mine works! Amazing.

In programming today, I just slept. That's all. No assignments even. I'm beginning to think wonder that if I wake up at 4:30 one morning, and sleep for a period, would I feel the same at third period, or when I got home? Could be, but it sounds dangerous. After all, region auditions are Saturday.

Ah, in English, we delved into a natural science far beyond anyone's comprehension: the apostrophe. Yes, it's true. Today we 'reviewed' the correct usage of the apostrophe in possesive singular and plural nouns, as well as in contractions. I find it amazing that half the class believed 'women's' is spelled that way when possesive. I feel as though I am among 25 other kids in wheelchairs, who just stare up at the ceiling and make high-pitched moaning sounds every five minutes.

Chemistry's really not terribly interesting anymore. I think it's because I've gotten over my little crush on Halley. She's cute and all, but I'm not the type of person to be dating a Mormon. I'm just not 'wholesome' enough. Not in God's eye anyway.

Choir certainly has been a lot more fun recently. I've been talking to Julia Matsuno. She drives a VW Bug. In fact, she drove me and Sterling home in it today. If there is a cooler affordable car in existence today, drive one up to my damned house. 6302 Oak Masters Drive, Spring, Texas. 77379. Anyway, Julia (or Yue) is a nice friend to have; joyful, but not sickeningly so, and very kind. Kind in the aspect that she's saved me from sitting next to Robert Palisin at least six times. Palisin thinks she likes me, and though it would be nice, he's awfully stupid, and she's a junior. Meh.

Geometry consisted of me waiting until the bell rang. Such a boring class, and always forced to sit with new people every six weeks. The only interesting part was Claire trying to decipher the hidden meaning of Julia's note to me, which reads: This is a strip of paper that I am left with after writing on the actual paper. Have a nice day! Love, Julia.

Girls write the most pointless notes to you. No matter what nationality.

Thursday morning. It's so cold in here.

Back from region rehearsal, and finally with time to write of last night's concert.

It was unbelievable.

All three of our songs, Chip as the soloist on the spiritual, Lisa playing the clarinet on My Heart's In the Highlands, Ms.LeMay playing the piano, everything right down to peoples' ties was perfect. Even the junior high kids didn't sound bad. It was the best choral performance I've ever been to, much less performed at. That will all change next year. It was announced that the Klein High School Chorale will be the feature choir on our trip to New York in the spring; which means Moses Hogan will be conducting us seperately from every other high school choir that will be there. In Avery Fisher Hall, in Lincoln Center. Yes, we're that cool, though there is an infinite amount of added preparation we must go through for this. It will be the experience of a lifetime.

On today. In electronics, our 'projects' have finally come in, which are really nothing more than little circuit board kits. Pretty easy stuff, although at least it teaches us a slight amount of skill at this type of thing. People will finally have to learn how to solder correctly. There is never anything more interesting than that in that class. Soldering.

In programming, we're continuing to create little programs that calculate prices for a company, short equations, averages, and basic concepts like that. Or should I say BASIC. As far as Mrs.Gonzales tells us, this is as complicated as Visual BASIC will get. And, that's true. The name of the course is Business Computer Programming, not Gaming Industry Programming. The typical programmer works with teams to create boring accounting software. Yes, I am interested in a career in computer programming, or perhaps any computer-related occupation. And it may sound silly, but I'd rather be working on the Half-Life 2 team with Sierra, or a Quake 4 team with iD Software than determining the average Joe's yearly salary. Like I've said before, I live for singing and technology. Singing is an artform, and so is gaming; no matter how mindless it is.

I don't really care to talk about English anymore. There's really just nothing to talk about.

In chemistry, I believe I'm beginning to understand the five systems used to name compounds. Roughly. Valence numbers and oxidation are important, as far as I know; the rest is up to the teacher. Damnit, it's cold in that class.

In choir, of course, we watched a recording of our concert last night. It wasn't anything near the sheer magnitude of this year's chorale singers in the acoustics of that church, but it was still mesmerizing to watch. I love that spiritual.

Geometry. Claire was jealous that we're the feature choir in New York, and that Liederkranz just goes to Washington, D.C. in a year or two. I just tell her she'll be in chorale next year anyway.

Before I sign my joyful little self off, I just have to say it. Rob's website sucks. A lot.

It's too late to do any writing right now. Tonight was concert night, and I'm tired, though I'll write about it tomorrow.

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If there was ever a crime investigation that injected the fury of all that is evil into my being, it's this. They think the sniper in Washington is a gamer. Read it for yourself.

Well I'll be damned. Not a bad Monday at all, once I got past my staggered start towards it. My alarm clock was, by all definitions, not the entity that woke me up this morning, though I was grateful that something woke me up at all. After my mother's wakeup call, I rushed to try and wash my hair, get a little composure and eat, but barely missed the bus. What a shameful, impunctual person I am.

In spite of my duel with time this morning, today wasn't too bad. In electronics, we finally learned Ohm's Law, which many people didn't understand. I just don't see how people can't comprehend the fact that E stands for voltage.

In programming, I got to present my wonderful little program (modeled, of course, after the book's assignment) to the class. It was really quite simple; more so than others' assignments, only a program that would calculate the average of any three numbers, but still, it looked very professional. Microsoft standard format, you know? I'm turning into Satan. Surprisingly, after watching the rest of the class presentations, I noticed that the only really stupid people are the sophomore and junior who sit near me. Everyone else had the whole works. Pseudocode, the correct user interface format, the right equations, everything. I still wish I had taken computer science. Visual Basic is such a damned easy language.

There was a bit of ineptitude in English, however. I won't go into any detail, but shouldn't we all know what a synonym and an antonym are by now?

Chemistry is always a nice class, especially when it takes awhile for Mr.McCormick to get to class from his usual cigar-smoking habits in Meyer Park. It's nice to know you actually do have friends that you can talk to while standing outside the door, despite what some people may believe. There was a quiz today on the five different naming systems for various compounds. I'll be lucky if I got higher than a 30.

Choir was fun today. Now that the school district realizes we are not just an organization that sits in a circle every day to sing Kumbaya, we no longer have to perform in the shoddy Klein High auditorium, but get to sing in the Centrum, which is a church just down the road. Such better acoustics and everything. Today we had the privilege of driving out there for a sound test. It was really nice to get out of the school for awhile, and I ended up riding with Julia and some guy named Adam, which was much better than being forced to sit in a car with Palisin, or Alex Pankonien. Julia is cool. She's all Japanese, and stuff, and she's got a VW Bug. It's really pretty difficult to be cooler than that.

Hey, I sit next to Claire Dunnagan in geometry now. That makes two; no, three classes I actually talk in! I'm overjoyed.

My prediction was correct, for once. A good day. Goodnight. Goodnight to my unseen audience in the world - you live in Austrailia for all I know. Or do I really have an audience? Am I sitting here, typing away at my little coffee-stained keyboard, with the Dr.Pepper cans piling up at my desk, virtually talking to myself? Dumping my thoughts into a jar, an archive of my mind to return to and reflect on? Relieving a long day's stress and insecurity? Writing? Composing? Sketching? Thinking? Discussing theology, philosophy, the meaning of life, education, irony, satire, love, justice, happiness, perhaps within the confines, or privacy and infinite paradoxial complexion of my own mind. Occasionally I mesmerize myself with my writing, attempting to create a masterpiece, then other times, I relieve my anger or teenage angst as one might say. The mood and purpose, not the talent, skill, experience, nor even vocabulary defines the writer. I am not a poet, nor a composer, not even a mere writer. I prefer to think of myself as a young thinker.

7:30 on a Sunday night. Is there really anything more depressing than that? I can only think of two things; no, I can't. Not right now. It's the last of my weekend, and I really don't want to think that much.

I've been playing EverQuest for the last 5 hours or so. Make that 2 hours; I actually got out today and tried to ride my bike on the old route I used before I started having this breathing problem. I think I almost killed myself from the stress of trying to catch my breath, so I suppose I really just need to stop until I get over this. Although, I really can't stand not being able to get out of my house when I feel like it. I could go for a walk or something, but I prefer the speed of a decent pace on my bike.

I think I'll write about how ecstaticly good my day will be tomorrow when I get home. Only because there's no rehearsal tomorrow, but still, maybe something else good will happen. Who knows?

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Well, I am returned from the Mormon LAN party. Always kinda fun, as long as you can suffer all the little kids running around, and the diet coke. Right now, I'm talking to this kickass guy on EQ about every anime I've ever seen, it seems he's always one step ahead of me. It's so very nice to actually find someone that shares a few interests every once in awhile.

Yesterday at the homecoming game wasn't that bad. We sang, and I left, simple as that. Palisin was being a retard as usual, and bugging this girl Julia. So very, very stupid. I have nothing more to say, other than the fact that he should not live to see old age.

I estimate homecoming is ending around now. I'm sure it was loads of fun. Yeah. At least now, with this LAN party, I'll have an excuse as to why I didn't go.

What a nice, easy Friday. Since that stupid homecoming pep rally was today, every class was a bit shorter, and some friends and I just walked around the school while we waited for the buses. I've still got to go sing at the game with the choir, which I can't stand. At least I can leave when we're done.

This damnable tetanus vaccination I had to get is actually a good bit painful. My shoulder's a little stiff, and hurts to move. Oh well. No pain, no gain, right? Or, no pain, no protection from potentially deadly neurotoxic bacterial infections? Something like that.

Today was allright, though I was really waiting for choir rehearsal to be over. I hate forgetting to bring my music. Looking over someone's shoulder and singing at the same time always makes the other person kinda nervous. Chemistry was a nice break from the routine of English, programming and electronics, though it's actually beginning to become very difficult. I guess I'll get used to it; I suppose I've been in easy regulars classes too long. As long as I'm still challenged enough, and that I don't get a sense of superiority to everyone else, I think I'll be okay. Wait, I do have a sense of superiority. Rightfully so, in electronics at least! Well, you've got to aim high.

Hear about that sniper that's causing mass hysteria and murdering several people? Now here's the kind of crime intelligent people commit. If you're pissed, you do not break the law by strapping a bomb to yourself and running into a boy scout meeting. Isn't that a bit lame? A .223 caliber rifle and a nice spot to sit and aim is the way to kill people, if you ask me. He hasn't even been caught yet! I think that if people like me were criminals, government officials would be wearing armored suits. Planning, efficiency, and secrecy is the way to screw people over, illegally or not.

Ugh. I've got to sing the national anthem at the game tomorrow with the choir. I am the antichrist of school spirit.

Ah, Wednesday. I think we actually did some work in electronics and programming today, but I don't quite remember. It's all really a blur. English was also exceptionally boring today, as we just read a book and took notes on it. Although, you've got to admit; how interesting can a class that teaches a language you've spoken for 13 years be?

Chemistry wasn't too bad, we had this test over electron configuration diagrams, which I actually think I failed. I'll live. Me, Halley and some other people are going to the Renaissance Festival sometime this month or the next, which should be fun, things like that always are. I'd wear my katana, but it's not exactly European. Besides that, a sword and khakis? I don't think so.

The hatred swells up inside me every time that greasy-haired, arrogant idiot sits next to me in choir. Did I mention that? I now sit between the sopranos, and Palisin. I can't fucking stand it. He's all like, hey John, what's up, havin a great day? I know I am! Man, that geometry test was hard. I mean, when we had to draw the square thing that had all those sides? Jesus. I soooo failed.

I'd be all like, STFU.

But, I think I'd break a level of trust between the directors and I. I suppose I can stand it, eventually he ought to be moved towards the rest of the lesser basses, but the aura of stupidity that borders my shoulder is very, very hard to ignore.

Whoa. What the fuck. I can't believe it's already Tuesday. Well, it's allright. I did make level 55 in EQ; what a sheer life's accomplishment. I wonder, is this ever going to benefit me in ten years? I think so!

No LAN party, fortunately enough. I would've much rather sat around the house like I did. I had mindless frog killing to do, and I was just tired. Then again, I'm tired today too, but what difference does it really make when you get home?

Today's going to be a great day. I can tell. Spectacular even. I'll come home and collapse from the massive amount of happiness overcoming me. You just wait.

By the way, don't ever gamble in EverQuest. I lost my god damned horse.

It is Friday.

What sheer bliss! I'm home from region rehearsal, and it's a three-day weekend. Saturday, I'm going to that play. Sunday, I plan on sitting on my ass while playing EverQuest. Monday, I'm going to another Mormon LAN party! Hurrah! Just as long as they don't try to 'bring me closer to Christ', it'll be pretty fun. Plus, my computer works perfectly now. Fucking clockwork.

Have a nice weekend. Because I'm going to.

It's Thursday!

I hate Thursday.

But, today was ok!
Because you see, today wasn't that bad, because it was a completely normal day. Normal amount of work in every class, normal amount of homework, normal people, normal everything. Thursdays are just freaking normal.

In fact, so very normal, that there's almost nothing to talk about. Save the fact that tomorrow's Friday, which I am overjoyed about, and the region music is still so very impossible. Oh, and Halley can't go with me and Rob to see the play on Saturday. Oh well. Tomorrow's Friday!

Oh, how much nicer Tuesday is than Monday. How much nicer indeed.

In electronics today, we continued to watch Apollo 13, but hell, I don't really mind, even when we do work, it's generally pretty easy. If I do anything to change the curriculum in there at all, I'm going to make a lot of enemies real fast anyway, so I've given up.

Programming... Once again we did these retarded exercises from the Visual Basic book, which took me 15 minutes, allowing me to ever-so-gracefully tell stupid people how to set the tabindex property of a form. Not too bad, I prefer telling retards how retarded they are rather than listen to their incompetence for an hour.

Then I get to English, and of course, with my luck, we're meeting in the auditorium. Thought it was going to be some stupid counsellor assembly, but it was actually the drama department's play preview. This year it's A Midsummer Night's Dream, and a great performance of it at that. Was also fricking hilarious. Put me in such a great mood; I think I actually smiled.

Chemistry was a nice class today as well. Me, Rob and Halley are going to see the play on Saturday, probably with a few other people, which ought to be fun. I can't imagine what it will feel like to be out of my house on a Saturday. Pretty crazy.

Choir was nice and uplifting as well, we sang the spiritual song, and, although I'm not a spiritual person, singing it always puts me in a good mood. There's so much energy in the rhythm, and the way the phrases build up to the end. A big fuck you to all who believe students sit in a circle and sing Kumbaya in choral organizations. I live for two things: singing and technology.

Meh, geometry sucked as usual, but it was ok, because it was also easy. As usual. Hah.

RAR.

I know, I haven't updated in awhile, but I've been kinda lazy, and tired, and my computer is still royally screwed up. New motherboard won't be here till Wednesday, which also sucks. But here's how my wonderful Monday went.

In electronics, no one could understand Ohm's law, which is something like amps over volts=current (he didn't bother teaching it to us). Therefore, until Wednesday, we'll be watching Apollo 13. This one's principal-approved! It's got soooo much electronics in it. Yeah.

Oh how I wish I could smite down everyone in my programming class with some sort of unholy wrath. Unfortunately, all I've got is long hair and a multisyllabic vocabulary, but hey, it's a start. Today consisted of us opening up a pre-made program, and modifying many aspects of it. As usual, the juniors who sit to the left of me just copied off me again. I keep telling them they're going to fail the hell out of the class when we actually have a project to do, but it's their funeral, and it's my matches that I get to throw on their coffins. Although, if I knew these people a little better than I do, I would be concerned for them. It's so astonishing to hear these people ask you how to change the background color of an application after six weeks of being in the class. They couldn't make an exit button for a calculator program if I gave them a damn handbook. And actually, we do have handbooks. All the worse for them.

In English, we had some lazy substitute teacher whose sole job was to turn on the stereo so we could listen to some science-fiction novel. There were about two people who weren't sleeping, of course, when the word 'gay' was mentioned in the context, and didn't refer to homosexuality, everyone broke out in laughter. Ugh. I can't stand immature people; there are some guys in there that act like sixth graders all the damn time. I'm just so thankful we didn't have to read this one out loud. There were big words like 'commander' and 'you'.

Well, chemistry was allright, not phenomenal, but at least we got to do this lab which involved putting chemical X into chemical Y. Gotta love those real easy ones that don't require many mathematical equations. That's about it. Halley went to see My Big Fat Greek Wedding with some friends; I was going to go with, but it would've seemed a little awkward. 'C'mon guys, don't miss our triple date (and John) to the movies!' Hah.

Meh, choir. Mr.Raddin got in a car accident, and seemed to be having a great deal of trouble from whiplash. I sang the hellishness of Monday away with that spiritualish song.

More stupidity in geometry today. This girl who sits behind me was unable to subract 11 from 180 today in her head, and had to get out a sheet of paper to do it on. She's 17. Think about it; this means that this chick can drive a car, but can't figure out her gas milage.

As you can see, I'm really, really fucking tired of all this sheer ineptitude and incompetence. Why can't people understand such easy concepts? Especially in electronics and programming. If you ask me, we just need concentration camps for retards, make them die out so there will actually be a generation of human beings who can tie their shoes and have the intelligence to not drink the amount of alcohol needed to kill you in 30 minutes. It's never going to happen, I know. But we seriously need a little more Darwinism in our lives.

By the way, I made district, just forgot to post it on here. 29th in my room, which is actually pretty bad, but hey, I was sick. Now we move up to region, and the music is insanely hard. If you had a gothic cathedral the size of France, this is the kind of Renaissance stuff you'd sing in it.

Saw the doctor again, and I'm beginning to believe that there's some serious incompetence, or maybe just inefficiency in the medical community. This is the second time I've seen this doctor about the breathing problem I've got, and they said something like 'Yep, he's got a definite click to him.' Well what the hell does that mean? This is not a minor annoyance, people. I can't do very much without being out of breath afterwards. I can ride my bike at a decent pace, but it just about kills me. I need treatment, not more tests. What the hell is up with doctors? They charged us 60 bucks for her to say that. Ah, wait, that's right. Since I've also got a very noticeable heart murmur, they had to routinely hook me up to a panasonic printer, in layman's terms. I recall them saying something like, 'Ok John, now we're going to see how your heart is, and if you're going to have any imminent fatal heart failure in the next few weeks.' You know, I saw this really great picture on someone's MSN profile a few days ago. Allow me to quote it.

How about a nice, warm cup of STFU.

Ah, Tuesday. I didn't update yesterday, and there really wasn't much to talk about, save the fact that I did make district. Big surprise. I got 29th in my room, which is pretty crappy, but I was sick, so oh well.

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Gotta love those bigoted Christian chatrooms. I just love how they like to start their own holy war on you, and when they realize their vocabulary doesn't contain enough syllables to create a decent argument, they just kick ya. And for 15 minutes! Perhaps that's long enough for them to get a dictionary. Or a bible, to quote constantly until I either leave, or become a Christian.

Sunday night. I'm sick, I think I caught bronchitis or something from my dad. Didn't do too bad at auditions yesterday despite my back bugging me, or my sore throat. I didn't have anyone stay and see if I made it, but I'm pretty confident I did. More tomorrow.

Hurrah, I'm certified for district! To tell you the truth, I wasn't completely sure I'd make it, what with this damn breathing problem I'm having. Halley suggested I do yoga. I didn't do too bad, save the long notes that required a lot of breath, but on the second song, the rhythm beat the crap out of me. I missed a bunch of entrances, but Ms.LeMay still certified me, she said that I had a great voice, and that I did the mens' piece perfectly, so I guess that made up for my screwups. Meh.

Nothing worth talking about today. Same boring school day, with some decency in chemistry and choir. Geometry test.

Man. Tomorrow is district mock auditions, and I still can't breathe well because of my back problem. I'm going to choir hell O.o

In other news, today, we kept soldering pieces of wire together in electronics, which is something to do, but it kinda gets old after awhile. In programming, I designed this program, that's got this fish, and ya click 'fish' or 'no fish' and then you can be all like 'make fish bigger'. It was craaazy.

English comes around, and we keep revising those papers I talked about, people keep asking me why I'm an atheist after they get a chance to read my paper. Sigh.

We had this big atomic structure test in chemistry, with quantum electron configurations and such things. I think I passed, but I may have gotten the electron configurations wrong.. I think I copied a chart down wrong, or something. As usual, talked to Halley, Nicole, those people that sit around me. There's that Celeste girl too, but I think she only talks to people on her right side. Maybe it's a gothic thing?

Geometry. Could it get any easier? We're like, drawing three-dimensional models of rectangular prisms, I remember doing this shit in third grade. Bleh.

Man, this sucks. Some guy asked Halley to homecoming, and she said yes. I was gonna do that.

Hurrah, I'm home from district rehearsal. It was all parts, of course, no one seemed to pay any attention to that, and during a few songs I became the bass II section. Oh well. At least the short kid that sits next to me during choir isn't trying out for district... He is a bass II, but he's terrible. Kind of singer who likes to show off by singing really loud, raspy, low notes, because his voice just changed.

Monday. Not a bad monday at all. We even actually learned how to solder in electronics today, and quit watching U-571. We actually made an application in programming that involves a button. Whoa.

In English we went down to the computer lab, where I typed up my paper on my 'Self-Preservation Philosophy of the Purpose of Religion'. I just know that if we end up reading that, someone's going to get on my ass about being a godless heathen. It happens every damn time. But that's allright, I've never faltered in an argument defending my beliefs, or lack of them. I don't plan on being converted. Heh.

Chemistry! What sheer enlightenment is chemistry. I mean, imagine a class where instead of doing work in a solemn corner, with imaginary walls seperating you from all conversation, you actually could actually help people with their work, or be helped. I don't really care how hard it's going to be, next year I'm going to shoot for all honors, except maybe algebra-2. I hate math. Damnable math.

Sigh. Sunday night is always so blank, so unfulfilling, because you know that the next day is Monday. I never have been able to appreciate Sundays as a real holiday. This weekend actually kinda sucked, besides the fact that it was 2 days of no school. With his computer broken, a geek can get bored very easily. This damn spare computer I'm using displays 16 colors at maximum, so basically, all I can do is sit around on messenger programs. Talked to Halley on AIM Saturday, she was going skating in the evening, and I was actually going to ask her if she'd mind me going, but I had chores and stuff to do with my dad in Florida. His mother died a few months ago, and he's down there collecting some possesions. Very sad.

I'm looking forward to school tomorrow, so very much, this entire weekend I just sat around and did nothing, but what's more, not even my mom was here most of the time, she had to go to her office Saturday, and went to some quilt festival or something Sunday. I literally had no one to talk to but the people on AIM, and it's not like everyone's always online. I need to get out more.

I'm tired beyond belief, so I suppose I'll update again tomorrow when I get home from school.

Oh, rejoice, I am home. Done with district rehearsal, that stupid pep rally today, and everything else. Well, in electronics, the teacher got back today, and of course, to celebrate his return, we just had to watch a movie instead of doing work. Besides, U-571 has electrical components in it, like, um, batteries!

In programming today, we once again sat around and did nothing worth writing about. The only thing that was of any remote entertainment to me was trying to get higher than 43 words per minute with my right hand on that damned typing game. In English, we took a test on that crappy story The Pedestrian, and I was the only one in the class with a 100 on it. Big surprise. Towards the end of English, the teacher had us write about something that made us understand the world better, in a defined 4-paragraph format. I chose to write about my whole self-preservation religious philosophy. I think I'm going to turn it into a project sometime this year and see if the teacher appreciates it, because the class probably won't.

Ah, chemistry. Mr.McCormick was laying the smackdown on my lab report today, simply because I didn't show my work and my procedure was incomplete. He rambled on for some time, but still gave me a 92, so I guess I'm happy. Other than that, some utterly devastating news today. Hah. Halley says, 'Hey Nicole, I've got a date tonight with a guy from Cy-Fair!' then it was more like, 'John, did you choke on something just then?' Oh well. I did, after all, get her email. Sigh.

Ah, Friday is bliss. Not too much time to write today, as I've got to get to school early for that infernal pep rally I talked about. I resent singing in the morning, I never sound quite as good, which I why I really love to have choir at 5th period this year. I'm not a morning person, period. I mean, this morning, I got up, smacked my foghorn of an alarm clock off, and just went to my bathroom, and turned on the water in the shower as usual, it's just that I had all my clothes on. I really can't stand waking up.

More later, when I'm done singing the national anthem for the kiddies. Sigh.

Sigh, a substitute teacher in electronics today, so we actually had to get some work done for once. What a surprise that it took everyone the entire period to finish 23 multiple-choice review questions. Slackers. Programming was, again, boring as hell, but at least we had some work to do today. I'd rather work on easy tasks on a computer than sit in front of a 'Go Bearkats!!!' screensaver. Some of the people make the screensavers pretty stupid too, always leaving some really terrible quote, like from the Harry Potter movie, or something from the Fellowship of the Ring that is completely meaningless, like 'You have my bow.' Well, no shit sherlock, Frodo's obviously going to have Legolas in his motley crew of Companions, it's not like we all need a definition. Ugh.

In English, we listened to this horribly pointless story called The Pedestrian, which sole purpose was to educate us on what the theme of a story is. I think the teacher could've picked a better writing than that. I like reading books, but I hate stories that drone on and on about some pointless facts. Too much description is often insignificant when talking about a small topic, and we certainly do not need 50 adjectives per uplifting sentence.

Ah, a lab in chemistry today. You know, I always liked labs in 8th grade, the kind where the teacher passes out a sheet of data for you to fill in, but in high school, everything must be written out by the student. Of course, this is the way real science works, but it's still more difficult than educational, if you ask me. I also don't like labs that involve more mathematics than physical labor, but then again, what is science, if not mathematics?

In choir, we kept mind-numbingly rehearsing The Star-Spangled Banner, as if we didn't know it well enough. We practiced it in the choir building. We practiced it in the courtyard, the site of our little pep rally tomorrow. We practiced it in the big ensemble room in the band hall after that, because people were complaining about the heat in the choir building. Frankly, I don't notice the heat, after spending most of your life in Texas, and hanging out in a room that has overheating computers all the time, you really learn to like the heat, and love the darkness. When I go outside, it's not the heat that bugs me, or even the humidity that much, but it's that damnable sunlight! It's probably just because I was somewhat of a nocturnal creature during the summer, but I still don't like it. It's nice to walk around outside, but it's not nice to be blinded.

Goodnight.

Ah, Thursday. I always resent the fact that Thursday exists, such a pointless, evil day before Friday. It just doesn't fit in. Today, I have no idea what I'm doing in any of my classes. That's the joy of my disorganized life, nothing is ever scheduled or planned, it just comes. I would only know if there was a big test today, or something that a teacher repeatedly pounded into my brain.

I don't know what kind of day today will be, I'm looking forward to chemistry and choir, as usual, so it's nothing out of the ordinary. Geometry is no longer something I even have a remote interest in, yesterday we had seat changes. I sit with a table of four now, that includes me, some Hispanic girl, some Hispanic guy, and some girl who talks less than I do. I know, it's scary. All I really want to do today is actually have something, anything to do in programming. I swear, if we sit there staring at a computer monitor for an hour, I'm going to go psycho-blender. Don't get me wrong, I stare at a monitor quite often, but even still, at least this computer has something worth doing on it.

6:40, I've got to get out of here. More later.